sometimes

sometimes i feel like this- red, boiled, crabby..
(yes, i know... that's a lobster..)
sometimes things are hard and its easy to be angry--
i was angry with you tonight, sara-
and i think it's good to say that here-
so not everything is always peaches..yes, yes, we both know that- but somethimes things are hard..
you know i love you
i am working so hard to make things easier for me so that we can enjoy eachother more-- SEE ME..
i worry about you
i want to feed you
i miss you
i want to dance with you
have a time with you
be with you alone
and i want you to want to make that happen with me too..


your brother is here--i am happy for you
i know you love him(steven..she loves you!!)
and i want to get to know him too,
and for him to know me.. right now that means knowing
this work-person, this girl at the end of another 16 hour day.. hope you can be proud of me and see me no matter what..

sometimes i feel crabby---