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happy new year sara grace.
i hope that all of your dreams come true..
play more music.
a home just right.
time for art.
money in the bank.
yummy loveness around you.

what time don't allow

somethings are just better unspoken..then there are things you have to say or they turn toxic and bad... love..true and real-you have to speak into that, you have to or it gets all messed up-- like now- it feels like its been so long since i got to really speak into my love for her.. we are both so busy, and so full of our own work and busy-ness.. I am here now on the 9th floor watchining it snow perfectly and peacefully over montreal, and she is .... not here... tomorrow thanksgiving, want to forget turkey and just dive in deep with her into our own little love pudding like fruit in jello.. suspended there, bouncey, silly little happy fruit things in the jiggly-ness that is our love..
to look at her i see myself more than i have ever been able to with another person.
i look at her and see me.
i touch her and feel it in my own body.
she touches me and it is me touching myself.
sara grace=
i am so thankful that you are in this world.
went to sleep the other night knowing that i had known you before. remembering it all, and suddenly my whole life made sense it this earie sort of cosmic yummy way..everyone, everything has led me here, and i am more myself than i have been in a long time, and there you are, being you= you=you =you, being you more than you have been in a long time. you know that i was looking for you.


so thankful to know this love.

hear her sing

not just another pretty voice.
yum
yumm
yummy
yum

can it be true

she has a hold on me now.
i want everyone to know but dont know how to say it because it is so personal and so tender and so honest and just want it to be mine..

can it be true.. it can be true.. true it can be..be true can it..

saw you today.
you looked so excited and honest and full.

see you in this picture and see the most beautiful woman ever..really.. how long have i been waiting? know you'll be around for a long time.. maybe forever.
sara grace..
sara grace..

said bye

drove away thinking about her..
so many sides to this one.. rough and strong and full on---then sweetest yummiest nectorious sweetness ever... trusting then fearing her...that laugh... that voice.. love me baby.. leave me baby... no no no

yea, i like sara too

she's beauty and she's grace.
she's not miss united states,
thank god.

and when she rocks the mic
she rocks the mic right.

she's got passion and she's real.
if she cost a million bucks.
i'd consider that a deal.

she's a bitch and she's funny,
she works hard for her money.

and basically....
i like her.... yea

Hello there..
It seemed like a silly little funny thing to do to start this blog for sara.. But as I think about it more it makes perfect since..everyone needs a little boost.. I know I do and I know so many others who do too. Sara is soo good to me so it makes perfect sense to do something for her…ok it’s only a little blog- a little nothing blog that no-one knows anything about- infact it’s completely and ridiculously small and almost invisible- and yet it is not that different than ispy nor much better than a little love letter- just a gesture in this moment to say it OUT LOUD---THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU and HELLO.

HELLO.
I remember when I first met her. We talk about it a lot actually. My friend xxx told me about this girl she was into and I was like- big deal, and who is this girl anyway. I don’t know why I was so suspicious, I just was..then I get a job at the same place as her and was really distant and watching her like she was on trial… Several weeks later I came across her cd in the kitchen upstairs from the Langdon Street Café where we worked and thought- well let’s see now, what is she all about. I put in the cd, and ½ way through the first track I just stopped working and listened (I’m sure whoever signed my paycheck at that time would love to hear that)… Anyway, I listened and completely softened,, thinking- holly shit--, this girl is for real. I went back downstairs to do my café shift and ran into her- we switched sides of the counter and I had to tell her--

sara, I listened to your cd today and I was really impressed…

it took a lot for me to say that because I was turning red and blushing (she did always do that to me). About a week or 5 later she played on my night to close and I left that shift calling my friends and telling them all about her.

What was it?

It was like watching someone from outside their bedroom-

like seeing someone totally being themselves.

I watched her and was so inspired---

here was this person I had judged before me daring me-boldly telling me-

who cares-you know nothing.

Over the last year I’ve had all sorts of my own dramas unfold and Sara has too--

she lives each day on the brim of overflowing-

and each time we’ve passed I've let myself be open and honest with her-she'd listen, and make me blush with her radiance and her fire..

(I think a lot of people can relate to that).

There are some people who remind me of parts of myself that I don’t give enough credit..

I think sara is like that..

For the last month and a wee bit I’ve been able to spend more time with her--

we work together again and we have been able to talk a lot more-

we have more in common than I thought we could have-

and we’ve been great witnesses for each other..

The last few times I’ve seen sara perform on stage I have been in awe of her talent and her ability to channel the music of the universe through her…

sure she isn’t famous like FAMOUS FAMOUS, nor is she angelic- but each time she plays everyone is talking about her for days…

everyone loves her…and yet she is so completely human and full of loathing for her own self…

how can we love ourselves more..

this is the question my relationship with sara has inspired in me…

well, for starters we can make brave bold moves to express ourselves…we can give ourselves time to indulge in little fantasies…

we can take a day to do those things we’ve been yearning to look into…

we can remind others how much we need and desire support..

we can be a little nicer to ourselves..

eat well..

Sleep more..

exercise…

let others reflect us…

ask for help..

Let help in…

we can make small sacrifices…

we can reach out and tell someone we love them even when we may get nothing in return..

Even when we may look foolish..even when it is typed out in a silly little blog..

One of the coolest things about sara is her real and honest presence..

how I love her

lets love each other more…

lets listen more…

lets dance more..

lets sing more..

Lets all be a little bit more flamboyant in our expression of love..

everyone loves her..

what about you?