Hello there..
It seemed like a silly little funny thing to do to start this blog for sara.. But as I think about it more it makes perfect since..everyone needs a little boost.. I know I do and I know so many others who do too. Sara is soo good to me so it makes perfect sense to do something for her…ok it’s only a little blog- a little nothing blog that no-one knows anything about- infact it’s completely and ridiculously small and almost invisible- and yet it is not that different than ispy nor much better than a little love letter- just a gesture in this moment to say it OUT LOUD---THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU and HELLO.

HELLO.
I remember when I first met her. We talk about it a lot actually. My friend xxx told me about this girl she was into and I was like- big deal, and who is this girl anyway. I don’t know why I was so suspicious, I just was..then I get a job at the same place as her and was really distant and watching her like she was on trial… Several weeks later I came across her cd in the kitchen upstairs from the Langdon Street Café where we worked and thought- well let’s see now, what is she all about. I put in the cd, and ½ way through the first track I just stopped working and listened (I’m sure whoever signed my paycheck at that time would love to hear that)… Anyway, I listened and completely softened,, thinking- holly shit--, this girl is for real. I went back downstairs to do my café shift and ran into her- we switched sides of the counter and I had to tell her--

sara, I listened to your cd today and I was really impressed…

it took a lot for me to say that because I was turning red and blushing (she did always do that to me). About a week or 5 later she played on my night to close and I left that shift calling my friends and telling them all about her.

What was it?

It was like watching someone from outside their bedroom-

like seeing someone totally being themselves.

I watched her and was so inspired---

here was this person I had judged before me daring me-boldly telling me-

who cares-you know nothing.

Over the last year I’ve had all sorts of my own dramas unfold and Sara has too--

she lives each day on the brim of overflowing-

and each time we’ve passed I've let myself be open and honest with her-she'd listen, and make me blush with her radiance and her fire..

(I think a lot of people can relate to that).

There are some people who remind me of parts of myself that I don’t give enough credit..

I think sara is like that..

For the last month and a wee bit I’ve been able to spend more time with her--

we work together again and we have been able to talk a lot more-

we have more in common than I thought we could have-

and we’ve been great witnesses for each other..

The last few times I’ve seen sara perform on stage I have been in awe of her talent and her ability to channel the music of the universe through her…

sure she isn’t famous like FAMOUS FAMOUS, nor is she angelic- but each time she plays everyone is talking about her for days…

everyone loves her…and yet she is so completely human and full of loathing for her own self…

how can we love ourselves more..

this is the question my relationship with sara has inspired in me…

well, for starters we can make brave bold moves to express ourselves…we can give ourselves time to indulge in little fantasies…

we can take a day to do those things we’ve been yearning to look into…

we can remind others how much we need and desire support..

we can be a little nicer to ourselves..

eat well..

Sleep more..

exercise…

let others reflect us…

ask for help..

Let help in…

we can make small sacrifices…

we can reach out and tell someone we love them even when we may get nothing in return..

Even when we may look foolish..even when it is typed out in a silly little blog..

One of the coolest things about sara is her real and honest presence..

how I love her

lets love each other more…

lets listen more…

lets dance more..

lets sing more..

Lets all be a little bit more flamboyant in our expression of love..